Week 69

Weight: 222.2

Weekly Weight gain: 2.6
Total weight lost: 146.2
Average Weekly Loss: 2.12

Yup.  A gain.  Funny, though, I'm not upset at all.  Why is that?

Really, it's because I'm learning how to eat intuitively.  I'm learning to identify my hunger and my habits.  I was talking to Anna about this tonight.  It's interesting because my relationship with food has gone through 4 stages:

1980 - April 2009:
Attitude toward food: Eating whatever I want whenever I want--and however much I want.
Result: 368.4 pound weight

April 2009 - November (?) 2009:
Attitude toward food: Focusing on healthy foods, and trying to limit portions
Result: 100 pounds lost

November (?) 2009 - July 20, 2010:
Attitude toward food: Counting Calories--making healthy choices
Result: 45 pounds lost

July 20, 2010 - ??:
Attitude toward food: Eating healthy; chosing foods consciously
Result: 2.6 pounds gained

Of course, you've got to give it more time to see if this will work.  But really, it will have to work, you know?  I'm excited to see how I will respond with this.  In the past, I ate mildly healthy, but my portions were too big.  Now, I'm eating healthy, and my portions are smaller--though still too big.  I am learning to live without counting Calories--and find that it's easy to fall back into old habits of eating too much.  It's almost like when the parents leave and the kids go nuts and have a huge party.  I guess I just had my party.  And now it's time to clean up.  But I'll have to move out of my parents house of Calorie counting and learn to live on my own eventually--might as well start now.